Tuesday, May 5, 2009

My God's Enough

Alright, those of you who know me know that I am TERRIFIED of talking in front of people. But this morning I had this feeling that God wants me to speak to the youth group tomorrow about something I've been learning. But first I'm going to tell you, whoever is reading this blog. Now, I can't really make it all fun and exciting like Jono, or go all deep like Cree, and I'm not very good at puttig my thoughts to words. But I will do my best.

This morning, I woke up with the song "Psalm 73 (My God's Enough)" by BarlowGirl stuck in my head. a couple years ago I used to always listen to that song, but now I pretty much forgot it. So how did it get into my head? God. Here's the lyrics, and you can listen to it, it's on the top of my "Muzik" list:

I've had enough of living life for only me
And reaching just for the things that keep destroying me
So sick of envying the lives of so many I see
Somehow believing that they have what I need
My God's enough for me
This world has nothing I need
In this whole life I've seen
My God's enough, enough for me
I can't explain why I suffer though I live for You
Those who deny You, they have it better than I do
Cover my eyes now so that my heart can finally see
That in the end only You mean anything
Who have I in heaven but You
Nothing I desire but You
My heart may fail but not You
You are mine forever

So I decided to read Psalm 73. And oh. My. Gosh. I'm surprised it wasn't me that wrote it, it so much like my thoughts. In this world we live in, especially America, we have so many things that we think we "need". You "have" to have that thing, you "have" to have that friend, that person, that life, that - STOP! You don't. I don't. This past year, I had been putting my trust and basing my whole life, practically, on a person. And when that person let me down, I was shattered. I didn't know what to do with my life. I didn't know why I should live. I forgot God. And I sooo shouldn't have. I was reaching for things that couldn't satisfy me, things that would, in the end, destroy me. But all I need, all I've ever needed is God. He is truly enough. This world is nothing, do you hear me? Nothing. God is everything. And I've come to realize this over the past few weeks. "My heart may fail, but not You." I failed. Miserably. But God saved me. And now I want to re-give my life back over to Him. He made me, He gave me all I have, so the least I can do is live for Him. I challenge You to do the same.


Cecelia Melody said...

Good for you, Lilz.

Keep relying on God.

Heather said...

Okay first of all I love those lyrics. Second of all you just echoed thoughts that have been in my head....within the last year.
But that is so true. God is the only one that will ever be enough.

Lilz said...

you girls are beawesome! :)

Bethany said...

Lilia, this warms my heart to hear. Praise God for His pursuit of us! Where would we be if we had no Him to run to?

Sarah said...

:)im glad you wrote this LG, so glad